Why do I keep thinking about the end times

It returns like a tide — on commutes, at funerals, in the middle of ordinary Tuesdays. You have wondered if it is morbid. It is not morbid. The thought keeps returning because it is load-bearing: it is holding up a question about your life that nothing else has been able to carry.

Consider that Scripture treats this exact preoccupation as normal, even healthy. The earliest Christians greeted each other with it — maranatha, our Lord, come (1 Corinthians 16:22). They thought about the end constantly, and it made them generous, awake, unafraid of loss. The morbid version — the one that feeds on fear and screenshots — is a distortion of the watchful version, the way gossip is a distortion of love.

But let us also be honest: a returning thought can be a summons. “Behold, I stand at the door, and knock” (Revelation 3:20). What knocks wants to be answered, and the answer is not an archive of timelines. It is a turning. If the end times keep finding you, it may be because the End of all things is looking for you — and in Scripture the goal of the whole story is not an event but a Person (Romans 10:4). The thought is not your enemy. It is your bell. Answer it once, plainly, and see if it does not finally go quiet — not because you suppressed it, but because it was heard.