Why do I feel drawn to Jesus

Because the draw is older than the feeling. “No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him” (John 6:44) — draw, as rivers draw, gently and continuously. You are not inventing this attraction; you are noticing it. And what you are noticing has a specific shape: not interest in religion generally, not philosophy — Him. The figure Himself. The voice in the stories that reads you while you read it.

There is a reason the draw attaches to Him and not to a system. Every other founder taught a way and left you the walking. He said “I am the way, the truth, and the life” (John 14:6). Every sage points at the truth; He said I am the truth — and then, instead of ending like the others, rose. The draw you feel is the pull of a Person who is alive and has a habit of finding people in the middle of ordinary lives: “the Son of man is come to seek and to save that which was lost” (Luke 19:10). You are not the seeker here. That is the whole surprise of the sentence.

So do not analyze the draw to death, and do not be embarrassed by it. Follow it one step: read a Gospel slowly, alone, as a document rather than an heirloom — John, maybe first. See if the voice does not continue what it started. “And I, if I be lifted up, will draw all men unto me” (John 12:32). He is being lifted up still. That is why you feel it.